Hello, all. Remember me? Ya know, a few major things happen in my life and it's like I forgot how to blog. Forgive me. :)
Well, I'm sad to report that the whole pregnancy thing did not pan out. Child #5 has joined his/her siblings in heaven where (I'm told) we will someday meet. Dave and I went to the doctor for our weekly ultrasound on December 2nd and the heartbeat we had seen only 7 days prior was no longer there. The doctor did an outpatient surgery to remove the baby (or "cells" as they like to call it). It was a very sad and frustrating time, but I rest easy knowing, I repeat - KNOWING - that everything happens for a reason and our family of three feels more perfect than ever.
I wasn't able to say that before. I used to feel like there was a void I thought could only be filled by another child. And I was angry about my miscarriages. I hated the phrase "everything happens for a reason". Bologna. What possible reason could there be for three of my children dying before we even had a chance to meet them? Well, I'm so glad to say that those days of anger and frustration are behind me; replaced with a calm sense of acceptance and faith. I truly believe that God has a wonderful plan for me and my family. Understanding it is not nearly as important as enjoying it, so that's where my focus lies - on enjoying the life He has given me.
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Oh Elizabeth...I was so happy to see you'd posted and get to catch up with you and so sorry that this is your news. Wish I could hug you in person.
Your calm and peace shines through your words, though, even in the midst of grief.
Love you, my siesta!
Joanne
bringing all kinds of tears to my eyes sweet heart...I love you more than ever
Oh girl I am sorry to hear this. I am lifting you up to the God of all comfort our Savior. May He bless you richly.
I just wanted to say hello-I will be going to ATL as well and hope to meet you sweet one!
Much love,
Angela
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